Broken Silence in the crowd

" Fun Republic, Bhaiya ",
" Kya? "
" Fun Republic, via Veera Desai Road "

And the auto guy vanishes half of the time, not hearing my voice properly. The vocal chords also might be cursing the rickshawalla, unlike my heart, at times. But well, not to blame him also, since I am somehow not audible clearly most of the times. I feel to argue with my clients when I am right, and even with my boss at times, when I feel to put my point, but I am either taken for granted or not heard. I feel to shout at the top of my voice when I get irritated, but well, I didnt knew that the irritation of speechless voice would not even allow me to shout!

I want to talk to the people around, I want to argue, I want to quarrel, I want to giggle loudly, to irritate people around! But, what I hear is shrill soft voice, which is not even audible to me!



Imagining a speechless world around, feeling like a dumb, learning some signs to help myself clearing the simple things of life, like taking approvals, finding directions and guiding the person with fingers, hands and gestures.

A world of frustration, irritation and loneliness creeps in when you feel helpless not answering a call to the dearest person in the world, not able to call the parents coz you do not want to make them worried about your health, and rely on texting via sms and updating via Facebook.

Six months back, got a surgery done, for my throat, which also lead to severe problems recently. Thanks to a very dear friend of mine, Dr. Vimal and other close friends who helped me, guided me, never left me alone at any point of time, keeping myself motivated that I will be fine, and then recalling 'Hum Honge Kamyaab ek din'... We have a Buddhist saying, 'Its all about the karma', so have faith in yourself and you will be as normal as anyone else. But happy at the end of the day, that challenges helped me to grow as a person and even in the worst situation, helped me to do certain things which I was awaiting from since long!

With the rising morning today, hoping for a new sun to rise, where the tests are to be done for the next surgery, and the surgery to be followed soon in a day or two or three.


A hope for new voice, A hope for new songs.....
A hope for new shouts, A hope for new begining....

And finally, a hope for breaking the silence in the crowd, and see myself shouting amongst the crowd!

Faith and Hope - Amen!